Still

The World spins, but I stand still.
I stand with my eyes shut begging the spining to stop.
I need to catch up.
I need to slow down.
But all I have strength for is still.
Very still.
So still that I am moving one heartbeat at a time.
I want to open my eyes.
Watch the world spin around me.
What a beautiful sight that must be.
But the fear, the pain the uncertainty of the flood.
The flood I will surely open apon myself with each raise of my eye lids one by one.
The fear stops the beating of my heart.
The moving of my mind.
The spining of my world.
Here I stand alone and perfectly still......